Saturday, February 16, 2008

Either I’m getting dumber or just way more self-aware. Last night I stayed up until 6 am and I came to a few conclusions, had a few out of body experiences along the way, and here I am back where I started: in front of a computer screen. I think it was listening to the beatles last night and playing guitar that got me thinking. What kind of mind-blowing things people have already created. I need to reconsider how I write songs, how I approach life and how what I spend my time on. I started a book a month ago and right now I’m only on page 160. I’m just getting lazier and dumber. Art is a crazy thing. So subjective and what is it really? Who knows what we’re even creating and what makes a great work of art. It’s all in the subtleties… but isn’t it also in the larger scale picture as well? I think that when put in the right environment anyone can create art… but it’s those select few who can bend it and mold a shell into something great. Hopefully we are one of those select few, but it’s so hard to know. I think what it all comes down to is I need to stop rushing things and start thinking more clearly. I need to learn what is the best thing to do at what time and to focus on one thing before I start moving on to the next. I want to everything I’m ever going to do in the next 12 hours that I’m awake… but I can’t. I need to just focus on what I’m doing and make it the best that it can be before even considering something else. Maybe I’m not getting dumber, and I AM becoming more self-aware. But that can be a pretty scary thing.

Anyway that was just what I was doing the past 24 hours, that and putting these pictures up for you. It’s weird how a few days off where you’re just sitting and being lazy can make you think so much and get you so scared for you life. I guess I just need to take my own advice and not go so crazy try to take things one step at a time, hit things head on and just do everything I can when I can the best that I can.

Enough nonsensical ramblings… here are some pictures that I took in Los Angeles.











































































also check out this video.. pretty cool.

7 comments:

rianna said...

I have a strong feeling that you'd enjoy the graffiti wall here in Rochester, which is precisely why you losers need to come back here.

Just sayin'.

;)

SARAH STRAIGHTEDGE said...

..those are some deep thoughts.

and the pictures are amazing

Therewasagirl said...

Look at me being a woman of my word!

Granted, I'm indoors on a Saturday night, and aside from going over lines for a film I'm working on, I don't have much else on my plate (for the moment) and thought to myself, "Monica - you need to get your ass over to Brendan's page!"

So here I am. I demand that you be impressed! ;)

Those Obama-rama images are interesting. Some of those graphic prints of his portrait make me think of Mao Zedong. Not necessarily a negative connotation, just the boldness of the prints is reminiscent.

As nonsensical as your stream of consciousness-sort of writing may seem, it made a whole lot of sense to me; maybe it's because I'm in a similar state of mind these days. Becoming more and more self-aware and delving deeper and deeper into "the unknown" so to speak when it comes to what I want to create, what all I want to accomplish, and how I feel there is just so little time. Le sigh.

I definitely feel you, but I think it's a stage in the art of 'becoming' in and of itself, if you catch my drift...

Constant evolution, transposing from one form to the next.

I don't know if it's so much being able to bend or mold a shell into something to admire or regard as great as much as it could be a matter of holding that amorphous shell in the palm of your hands and instead of trying to shape it, having the balls to destroy it and make a new mold from its dust.

Unknown said...

I'm astonished by that video.

erica said...

I always love looking at your pictures. =]

Therewasagirl said...

P.S. That video = nuts. That guy is crazy brilliant.

reneemckennaperkins. said...

ohhh brendan,

relax youve got so much going for you and you hav your whole life to do it, just because everyone else in the wolrd is in some sort of rush doesnt mean you hav to be. and i know youve got other plans now but i better see some b walter photography fame in the future, bc youn know im quite the fan.

ive thought all of your thoughts a million and eleven times, and sometimes youve just got to stop and do what makes you happy and what you think is right.

:D thats ym splerge for today.

Brendan

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